where is the love?
I'm drowning in your eyes.
i am thankful
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 / 8:28 PM


i am so thankful to what i have now, not to mention having such a wonderful friends now.. my life is getting better and better though i was confused about something. but thanks to that, i now know what is my real problem. finally met MEGA and had a nice chit chat bout her neighbors, and laugh together. i havent seen for so long well kind of.. a week ago? that's quite long yeah?

today in drama, i think we did okay. fine. nice. good.
sometimes i feel left out in school. feels like im just a stupid pole who happens to be in ISB, that's all.. i have this stupid feeling that even if i die in the middle of the field no one will cares? is that so dramatic? i seriously want to end this shit life of mine pronto but, that's life.. i know..

i never hope that 'he' will be what i want him to, but yes, i am thankful.. maybe people around me doesn't feel what im feeling right now, but i know i can make it.. school right now, probably the best place for me because it is the only place where realities appears. i know who my real friends are, i know who i can lean on. and so on..