nothing much to write but i'll be writing again soon.. ngehehe, happy holidays. i am dying over here, nothing to do. -__-

as i said before, everything has changed yet somehow it is still the same. we are slowly losing our touch. i miss them, no doubt i really do miss them, but somehow my anger towards them arises everytime they did something. as for example, i was trying to be polite and soft, get the picture, I AM TRYING TO BE SOFT which i will never be, but with them i am trying, why? because i love them. and please dont judge by saying im stupid or whatever. so i was trying to be nice by asking some NICE questions NICELY somehow he raise his voice towards me without any reasons, excuse me, i was trying to be nice didnt i? the hell man, i am so sick of him, sick of him doing this to me. why cant he be nice like he does to nik? how come he can talk nicely to nik but not me? and in addition, he never reply my text, unless he wants something, he never answer my calls using me number, (sometimes). WTF? i have no idea what went wrong, did i said something that might hurt him, BUT excuse me, what about my feelings? i mean cmon, we are FRIENDS arent we suppose to talk to each other about stuff? not about nothing. my man, i miss you. i really do. why are you fading away? why are you being so cold?

i feel so down and lonely lately, and no kidding, i am missing them badly, i am trying so hard to live my life normally without them. i know i have to get to use to it, but somehow.. sigh, i dont know. seriously i just dont know.

NOW i HAVE TO, MUST, finish my reports. i have to smile though the heart is aching, thats what i have to tell myself everyday. like EVERYDAY. neways, Alhamdulillah, today was an okay day for me, we had our HM110 gathering it was quiet enjoyable i'd say.






yeap, indeed, my head is super messy. i felt like a tornado and mini tsunami and a typhoon in my head. super sleepeeyh now. current location as usual, CSC class. so bored. i felt like killing myself. seriously. serabut lah gilaa! haha.

anywho, i had fun last weekend, thanks everyone for making my life very much interesting. tsk, TOUCHYY :D
it was for fizi's 20th birthday! hope you had fun ma dear :)

HEYHOOO! today is 7th april 2011! what the hell?! above's post was well, actually two weeks ago's post! so whatever, i am so lazy to post that one. and i just decided that imma update this new one together with the old one! ehe <3

soooo, finals are sooo close, which is like in a week or so. and i havent started study yet at all. not even a bit. and my hospitality test yesterday was a bummer! a big bummer indeed. ahahaha. LOLLLLOOL! whata big lol. i tried to study but i cant, because... i am lazy! weehoo!

big news!!! no wait, NEW NEWS, i am moving on. yeap i am. so goodbye y'alls, i am so going to be a new person, all new! i will no longer think negative about everything around me. because u know i think, well i think, i am now thinking positive for everything that will or has happened in my life! okay, first of all, ignore my spelling, grammar and so all, because im typing without even looking at the screen. !

nothing much to write but i'll be writing again soon.. ngehehe, happy holidays. i am dying over here, nothing to do. -__-

as i said before, everything has changed yet somehow it is still the same. we are slowly losing our touch. i miss them, no doubt i really do miss them, but somehow my anger towards them arises everytime they did something. as for example, i was trying to be polite and soft, get the picture, I AM TRYING TO BE SOFT which i will never be, but with them i am trying, why? because i love them. and please dont judge by saying im stupid or whatever. so i was trying to be nice by asking some NICE questions NICELY somehow he raise his voice towards me without any reasons, excuse me, i was trying to be nice didnt i? the hell man, i am so sick of him, sick of him doing this to me. why cant he be nice like he does to nik? how come he can talk nicely to nik but not me? and in addition, he never reply my text, unless he wants something, he never answer my calls using me number, (sometimes). WTF? i have no idea what went wrong, did i said something that might hurt him, BUT excuse me, what about my feelings? i mean cmon, we are FRIENDS arent we suppose to talk to each other about stuff? not about nothing. my man, i miss you. i really do. why are you fading away? why are you being so cold?

i feel so down and lonely lately, and no kidding, i am missing them badly, i am trying so hard to live my life normally without them. i know i have to get to use to it, but somehow.. sigh, i dont know. seriously i just dont know.

NOW i HAVE TO, MUST, finish my reports. i have to smile though the heart is aching, thats what i have to tell myself everyday. like EVERYDAY. neways, Alhamdulillah, today was an okay day for me, we had our HM110 gathering it was quiet enjoyable i'd say.






yeap, indeed, my head is super messy. i felt like a tornado and mini tsunami and a typhoon in my head. super sleepeeyh now. current location as usual, CSC class. so bored. i felt like killing myself. seriously. serabut lah gilaa! haha.

anywho, i had fun last weekend, thanks everyone for making my life very much interesting. tsk, TOUCHYY :D
it was for fizi's 20th birthday! hope you had fun ma dear :)

HEYHOOO! today is 7th april 2011! what the hell?! above's post was well, actually two weeks ago's post! so whatever, i am so lazy to post that one. and i just decided that imma update this new one together with the old one! ehe <3

soooo, finals are sooo close, which is like in a week or so. and i havent started study yet at all. not even a bit. and my hospitality test yesterday was a bummer! a big bummer indeed. ahahaha. LOLLLLOOL! whata big lol. i tried to study but i cant, because... i am lazy! weehoo!

big news!!! no wait, NEW NEWS, i am moving on. yeap i am. so goodbye y'alls, i am so going to be a new person, all new! i will no longer think negative about everything around me. because u know i think, well i think, i am now thinking positive for everything that will or has happened in my life! okay, first of all, ignore my spelling, grammar and so all, because im typing without even looking at the screen. !